the quiet Sundays

First of all, I’m a delight.
Second, sometimes you need a lot of quiet to see hidden things.

When you get a long time to be in the quiet, you start seeing things in a new way….

Data centers are not great for the environment, and I think we all know that. However, and I say this using a place that accesses data centers, if we truly want to see an end to data centers, then maybe we need to stop using the internet. Now bear with me here…

A lot of builders and engineers have to sign NDAs when building data centers, but once they are built you can find out the info on them. Say, for example, you would learn that Amazon aka AWS uses the most data. The next would be the company that rhymes with feta. Your cell phone provider might be the next one, or maybe certain political people that run certain organizations.

If you truly want to end data centers, then take a long look at your technology usage. We want to blame AI, which is becoming problematic, yes, but often when we are told who the enemy is by those who manipulate the narrative, we don’t see what’s truly going on. Ponder this, if AI can solve problems then why hasn’t anyone asked it how to solve the data issue? If you can walk around with a device in your pocket, that can hold multiple gigs of memory, then couldn’t the tech folks figure out how to use that same knowledge to store data?

Also, while electric cars are a move in the right direction, have you researched the environmental impact on the non-renewal things needed to create these vehicles? Another pondering is where does the electricity come from, and how does it come to the facilities that turn those resources into electricity happen?

There are other things, such as this spiritual superiority, what I like to call the “star seed” phenomenon. This is kind of a bold statement that some people are more evolved or awake than others. While I’m not a PhD, nor do I want one, I’ve dedicated my life to finding answers. That doesn’t make me right, and I’m not the knower of all things — thankfully. However, I am a survivor, and have seen things that make the most hard core person pass out. Not a brag, just a reality.

Now, let’s talk about addiction to media and tech. I’m not immune, and as someone that loves to research everything, consuming data like a black hole, I’ve spent days reading everything I can find.

In all of this people are not thriving, resources for the most vulnerable are being taken away, and in a rare collab, science and spiritual folks are starting to see eye to eye on the power of empathy and compassion — something I see lacking in a lot of aspects of this modern world. Maybe if we stopped pointing fingers, and started shaking hands, things might go better. Well, that and remembering that we are all, in fact, connected.

Do I have solutions? Yep, a few. Let’s offer public transportation, fix the healthcare system, sit on the porches of our neighbors even if they don’t look like us, vote like us, or whatever thing we think divides us all, and gosh…just a lot more. We have all these tools at our disposal, but yet we still want to fling excrement at each other because we think we are the only ones who are right. We also fail to see that very often what’s hiding behind the curtain is something we created…

This weekend there were some realizations about my weird lady crone work I do. Lots of folks have told me that the how’s and why’s of what my work is needs to be out in the world, and goodness gracious that’s my plan — well, more like that’s what is happening already. The thing is…I’m just not algorithm friendly. Also, some bad choices in support were made, and that took me back to some places that weren’t so great. Through into all that the decade of having to care for my family that gave me the look of being the flakiest wishy-washy milk toast. So you know, I so own that, and have made apologies where needed. Sometimes you just gotta be who you are when life throws flaming lava rocks your way. Or, maybe, sometimes you do the best you can do while paddling to stay above water. Doesn’t mean what I did was right, or the best choice. Those things keep me up at night sometimes, so I work to do better and be better every day.

There’s more on my mind, but I think it’s best to share one of my favorite quotes from a book that changed my life as a child.

“We look not at the things which are what you would call seen, but at the things which are not seen. For the things which are seen are temporal. But the things which are not seen are eternal.”
― Madeleine L’Engle, A Wrinkle in Time