First of all, I’m a delight.
So I had a wee temper tantrum about a certain site (looks around at WP cautiously) using AI in a way that sort of takes the fun out of being a creative person online. And it’s not just this one, it’s any public facing place in the wildest of world webs.
That left me two choices:
1 – go live in a cave and mutter about the way things are
or
2 – get over myself and do things my way no matter what
As you can see I picked the second option.
There’s another aspect to this, and that has to do with something called intuition. This is the part of every human that knows what is best for us, but can be silenced due to fears, insecurities, and how one was raised. Oh, and the talking heads online that say humans don’t have prescience almost always don’t want you to know what they are hiding. That’s just psychology, not metaphysics. Anywho, I lead with my heart, then my soul, then after that my mind. When I decided to come back to my creative work, as well as with my helper work, my gut guided me to the places where I needed to learn things. However, here I was thinking it was going to be the path to…oh I don’t know…something other than complaining about AI to an empty online auditorium.
That’s when I realized something. All of that work, the postings, the crankiness, the podcast, the trying – it was for a bigger purpose. You see, I apparently had some things to learn. While the only time my intuition is wrong is when I’m not listening to it, sometimes I don’t listen to it…all the way. Or, rather, in the past I was not listening to it all the way, but with all the things shifting my way this time I did.
Years ago when working with a magical mentor, they told me about a meditation where you create something in your mind, like a scene of a forest, adding in all the details you can. Once you get to a place where it feels real, you hold onto that for a few minutes until it is time to un-create the image you’ve created. However, that was not shared with me before we started the meditation, so imagine how my mind was racing when the mentor said, “Now, take all the things in your visualization and remove them until nothing remains.”
A similar thing happened when I started my mentorship with Susun Weed way back in the early two-thousands. It was a green allies class, and I, the student, was asked to pick a green ally to work with during the duration of the program. Little did I know that at the end of the assignments was one where you had to harvest the ally that you had raised from seed. While I couldn’t do that, and am glad that I didn’t as it shifted some things in my life, it was a lesson in nothing is permanent. All things change, and we can lean into those changes by listening to ourselves.
And that’s it – that’s the epiphany. When I truly listen to myself then life is a lot easier; more whimsical. Sometimes life is not the way we would want it to be, but we are a house unto ourselves. Rumi says that being human is a guest house, and I tend to agree with him on that observation.
I’ve been curtailing my social media usage more and more each day. It was such a huge part of my life for far too many years, and I also gave it, as an entity, some of the best years of my life trying to show people who I am. So once I got the nudge from the Universe to switch things up again, it was important to listen.
Until next time…much love,
~ Kim
Kim Upton 